Showing posts with label Thankfulness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thankfulness. Show all posts
Wednesday, November 27
Thankfulness day 27
Today I am thankful for choices. I'm not always good at seeing ALL the choices I have but I'm getting better at it. Being open to seeing all the different options and choices available make such a profound difference in ones ability to accept responsibility, take control, and make positive changes. It's a hard lesson, and takes some time to really learn, but I'm getting there. And I'm thankful...
Tuesday, November 26
Thankfulness day 26
I'm thankful today, already... Thankful for heat... I'm thankful that, while I shut it off at night and it's darn cold for the 4am potty dash, I can crank the heat on at that time and when I finally emerge from my snuggly bed at 5:30 to start nudging kids awake, it's warm and not so horrible to have to be awake and moving.
Not everyone has heat. Not everyone can turn theirs on whenever they want to. Not every small toddler can be warm and safe all day. Not every momma can have warm toes. I'm thankful. Soooo thankful.
Not everyone has heat. Not everyone can turn theirs on whenever they want to. Not every small toddler can be warm and safe all day. Not every momma can have warm toes. I'm thankful. Soooo thankful.
Monday, November 25
Thankfulness day 25
I'm thankful for grief.
If I didn't feel grief, it would mean nothing had touched me so deeply, with such love, or that I had never experienced such love and joy that it's loss would leave me...well, full of grief in that love's absence.
My father passed away unexpectedly last year at this time. While I did not have the relationship with him that I wished I did, and though there are others who were closer and more connected with him, I miss him. I miss knowing that my dad is there, even though he lived 3000 miles away and I hadn't really seen him in years, I knew he was "there". And now he is not.
I'm thankful for the feelings of loss and grief, for the tears and the sadness. It reminds me that I am indeed connected to others, that I have had relationships worth mourning, that my heart is alive and capable. I can only have this grief and sadness, because I have had it's counterpart - joy, love, connection.
I miss you dad.
If I didn't feel grief, it would mean nothing had touched me so deeply, with such love, or that I had never experienced such love and joy that it's loss would leave me...well, full of grief in that love's absence.
My father passed away unexpectedly last year at this time. While I did not have the relationship with him that I wished I did, and though there are others who were closer and more connected with him, I miss him. I miss knowing that my dad is there, even though he lived 3000 miles away and I hadn't really seen him in years, I knew he was "there". And now he is not.
I'm thankful for the feelings of loss and grief, for the tears and the sadness. It reminds me that I am indeed connected to others, that I have had relationships worth mourning, that my heart is alive and capable. I can only have this grief and sadness, because I have had it's counterpart - joy, love, connection.
I miss you dad.
Sunday, November 24
Thankfulness day 24
I'm thankful for getting home safely last night, that my sideways slide downhill ended safely and in a forward facing position on the correct side of the road. I'm thankful I was alone in the car just in case it hadn't ended so well. I'm thankful for all wheel drive, new brakes, and for the sand trucks out this morning!
Saturday, November 23
Thankfulness day 23
I'm thankful for Llama Llama Red Pajama, pomegranates, pork roast, snuggles with my daughter and old episodes of Greys Anatomy... And for you.
Friday, November 22
Thankfulness day 22
Vanilla ice cream.
Hot fudge.
Caramel.
Whipped cream.
Sprinkles.
One spoon.
Perfection.
Thursday, November 21
Thankfulness day 21
Today I am thankful for grace.
The kind of grace that allows one to completely miss the bottom step on the way down, and fall flat on one's face, in front of a policeman and three burly tree cropping crewman, and still get up and walk away, head high.
The kind of grace that smiles and waves, all the while cursing inside in very big words.
The kind of grace that, with bleeding knees and swelling ankle, get into ones car and moves it from danger of the tree cropping crew, while they watch, then walks back UP said stairs, still smiling, and while still being watched, and makes it inside without further "dis"grace.
The kind of grace that allows one to, later on, laugh their fool head off over what one small, slightly roundish, gray haired woman must have looked like, in her pj bottoms and stripey socks, going ass-over-teakettle down the concrete steps onto the gravel road.
Oh I do love me some grace!
And I'm also thankful that bloody knees and a slightly puffy ankle are the worst of it. There was a pile of broken ceramic I landed in and suffered no damage from; nor did I break anything critical, tear anything crucial, or bleed from any other spot. Lucky me!
The kind of grace that allows one to completely miss the bottom step on the way down, and fall flat on one's face, in front of a policeman and three burly tree cropping crewman, and still get up and walk away, head high.
The kind of grace that smiles and waves, all the while cursing inside in very big words.
The kind of grace that, with bleeding knees and swelling ankle, get into ones car and moves it from danger of the tree cropping crew, while they watch, then walks back UP said stairs, still smiling, and while still being watched, and makes it inside without further "dis"grace.
The kind of grace that allows one to, later on, laugh their fool head off over what one small, slightly roundish, gray haired woman must have looked like, in her pj bottoms and stripey socks, going ass-over-teakettle down the concrete steps onto the gravel road.
Oh I do love me some grace!
And I'm also thankful that bloody knees and a slightly puffy ankle are the worst of it. There was a pile of broken ceramic I landed in and suffered no damage from; nor did I break anything critical, tear anything crucial, or bleed from any other spot. Lucky me!
Wednesday, November 20
Thankfulness day 20
Today I'm thankful for the people in my life who love my children as much as I do. I'm thankful for the teenagers who love my tiniest one, for friends who rejoice with me when my children succeed and those who worry with me when that is what's called for. I'm thankful for friends who care for my kids, drive them places, and pray for them. I couldn't be more blessed.
Tuesday, November 19
Thankfulness day 19
I'm still riding the high of the job offer. My start date is a few weeks away still and while the job isn't exactly the job I want, the hours I want, or the location I want, I'm thankful I'm mature enough to accept that it's a good job and a paycheck and it's a stepping stone.
So today I'm still thankful for the offer, but thankful too for the wisdom to accept the job.
Sunday, November 17
Thankfulness day 16 and 17
I'm thankful this weekend for time... Time to go to the park and the library, time to pick my son up after work, on time... I'm thankful for the time to cook a multi step meal, homemade waffles, and mix up faux mimosas. I'm thankful for the time to sit, to watch a movie, to read a book, to read endless repetitions of Llama Llama Red Pajama, time for snuggling an rocking my toddler, time for stretching out on my older sons bed and companionably watching him play video games. I'm so thankful for time...
Friday, November 15
Thankfulness day 15
Today I was thankful to be able to help out someone else. I had the absolute pure joy of being able to step outside of myself and my own "needs", to see that I am capable yet of giving... and that giving is so sweet.
Thursday, November 14
Thankfulness day 14
I am thankful today for health insurance and easy access to health care. Its something I don't often think about, but when I have a sick baby and a worried heart, it's so reassuring to just pick up the phone and call and make an appointment. I'm thankful I have insurance, that it's a $20 copay which I have available in my bank account and that it's a quick and easy thing for me to do.
I'm thankful that taking my child to the doctor does not mean a $180 emergency clinic visit (been there, done that, still paying the bill). I'm thankful that I don't have to weigh out the lost time/pay at work with exactly how sick I think my child is - thankful that I can just decide he is sick and take him in. I'm thankful that I don't have to weigh out the cost of medication (another $8-10 copay) against gas money, or grocery money, or an electric bill disconnect notice. I've been there too... so I really am, truly, thankful.
I'm not floating in money here, and not without concern for every dollar that is mine to spend, and I do weigh and measure expenses and place value on them. But today? Today my child's illness is not something I have to weigh out, measure, assign value to, and worry to bits over. Today I can take my child to the doctor, get the prescription, and still have money for my gas tank, my bills (well, most of them!) and food for our table.
Today is a day for being thankful. And honestly, today is all I can handle!
I'm thankful that taking my child to the doctor does not mean a $180 emergency clinic visit (been there, done that, still paying the bill). I'm thankful that I don't have to weigh out the lost time/pay at work with exactly how sick I think my child is - thankful that I can just decide he is sick and take him in. I'm thankful that I don't have to weigh out the cost of medication (another $8-10 copay) against gas money, or grocery money, or an electric bill disconnect notice. I've been there too... so I really am, truly, thankful.
I'm not floating in money here, and not without concern for every dollar that is mine to spend, and I do weigh and measure expenses and place value on them. But today? Today my child's illness is not something I have to weigh out, measure, assign value to, and worry to bits over. Today I can take my child to the doctor, get the prescription, and still have money for my gas tank, my bills (well, most of them!) and food for our table.
Today is a day for being thankful. And honestly, today is all I can handle!
Wednesday, November 6
Thankfulness day 6
Today I am mostly just thankful that the day is over. It had its positive moments, it beauty and it's joy, but so much pain and strife that ran through it all. So I am thankful that I could come home today, put on my comfy pants, and let the tears fall while I was safe and sheltered. Now I can crawl into a soft clean bed and sleep. Tomorrow is another day... And I'm thankful for that too.
Tuesday, November 5
Thankfulness day 5
Today I am especially grateful for the simple joy of peace - for the moment when no one needs anything from me and all my "to-do"'s are done and I can sink into the weightlessness of just "being". It's a rare gift and I am grateful to be given that on this day. I embrace each second of it and sit in the stillness with confidence.
Monday, November 4
Thankfulness day 4
Today I am thankful for so much. In the face of adversity I was given encouragement, support, and a shot of self confidence. I had the joy of bonding with two incredible teens. I made a baby laugh. And I ended the day with Nutella and wine! What a day...!!
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